carbuncle debacle

its monday. nikah is on thursday. my cold feet has been warmed up by the fiance. he kept refering thursday as the day we 'sign contract'.

its been damn hectic the past few days. on fri, moses was in town so right after invigilation i met up with him, daly, sam and sketch. managed to conned zizi into coming down to chill without her finding out her 'sole-mate' was in town.

all these while, the fiance was in the hugest pain. i made him fly down to sg cuz his 'tail bone' was killing him. i was soooo panicking. its so near the wedding and the fiance couldnt even sit on his ass. hundreds of bad thoughts come flooding my head.

left the guys to pick fiance up at the airport. quickly took him to a&e changi hospy. did x-ray and see doctor and all the shitznits. nothing! but i could see it was all red and swollen, right at his tailbone. (somewhere where the spine ends). no fracture or anything. we were puzzled like anything.

the on saturday, found out it was a carbuncle. a damn huge one. sent him to the doctor again to remove all of the pus. doctor had to make 4 incisions to remove everything! he was in total agony. before that he bought new socks so i made him chew on them as the doctor was 'squeezing' out the matter. its not for the faint-hearted. i myself was amazed that in a matter of overnight, it could become and extra out of a b-grade horror flick.

he's much better now. can sit/sleep normally. back to his old funny nonsense. we managed to meet up with the photographer and mak andam yesterday. even went to spotlight to get stuff for the hantaran. going to another mak andam for dress fitting later with the fiance and buy more stuff.

soooo tiring.

my poly girly-gal sent-off dinner is cancelled. sigh.

i am upset but i shouldnt have taken it out on u. sorry. i just feel left out ever since u two hooked up. now i am not being asked out anymore cuz its the new couple and old couple double-date thingy. maybe i am being overly sensitive. but i gave my everything to the friendship i had with them and with u. but things changed so much and so fast that i feel cheated. out of the loop.

get me?

ah well.. i am happy, that everyone is happy. i'll be happier on thursday.

and the fiance surely warmed my cold feet well.

"will u still marry me?" he asked, right after the carbuncle debacle. he was afraid i might changed my mind after seeing so much blood and pus coming out from him.

"of course i will sayang." trying to push the thoughts of the pus mutating into a monster out of my head. haha.

3 days to go. very nervous. but fiance has been so nice even when i was biting his head off abt something or other.

my gestapo-ette mom feels cheated. she really shouldnt have impose the hundred days pantang. now, like it or not, we have to meet up to run errands for the wedding at the last minute. haha. i know she's sore abt it. i am not abt to rub it in her face.

smile. smile. smile. take a deep breath and smile when releasing your breath. practice infront of the mirror. find your best smile and just replicate it.

i feel like an idiot smiling to myself infront of the mirror. but i really want the wedding photos to look excellent. so smile away, idiot.

thanks guys for your pre-wedding wishes. :) puts a bigger smile on my face.