obsessing on the suspense

my sex-scan is in four days time. i cannot stop thinking about it. infact, i have been obsessing about it.

boy? girl? healthy?

i dont like being kept in suspense. its so.. frustrating. i wish somehow i get a phoebe-like vision and know in a second instead of waiting for this thursday.

then again, i have waited for almost 5-months now. whats another 4 days, rite? NOoOOo.. its pure torture. i cannot imagine the state i would be in, come thursday morning. i probably wont be sleeping on wednesday night!

the husband will be accompanying me this thursday. i hope he's ready for whats in store. its not everyday i am deranged, paranoid and dotty. i hope after seeing me in that state of mind, he wont love me less.

wait a minute, i am always like that!